This morning started like any other.
I woke my 3yo and started getting him ready for pre-school. We talked of drums and Thomas the train as he got dressed and brushed his teeth. We then said our prayers, gave one another a big hug, and daddy took him off to preschool.
Like clockwork my month old baby girl woke up wanting to be fed, and I held her in my arms, rubbed the edge of her hair and whispered, "Good Mornin' Love".
Ironically just as gently as I spoke to her I realized the Spirit of the Lord had sweetly entered the room. I began to pray in my mind; thanking God for waking me up, blessing me with my family, and began to pray for my loved ones and their needs. As I ended I sensed the Spirit of the Lord nudging me. "Ask me". I was not aware of anything I hadnt "asked for", so I simply began to pray for someone I'm concerned about; thinking that perhaps I needed to stand in the gap for them today. Once again I finished praying and sensed the Spirit of the Lord saying again, "Ask me."
Immediately as if watching a series of movie clips, I saw my little girl, my little boy, me dear husband, my sisters, my parents, my grandmother, and others that mean so much to me. I saw us driving here to L.A. just 8.5 weeks ago. I saw my wedding day. I saw my husband and I a few months from now in a church service completely overwhelmed by Gods presence; holding hands lifted in worship; working side by side in ministry.
The Spirit of the Lord began to deal with me. For the last 2 years I have prayed many prayers and alot o them have come to pass. Here we are living in California, working in ministry together. We've been blessed with a beautiful baby girl (after miscarrying our son last March). We're nowhere close to rich and definitely dont live in our dream home....but we're content. CONTENT. I found myself whispering..."Wow. Im content."
As I began to smile and feel a sense of growth the Lord continued to deal with me. After a few moments of revelation, I finally understood what He was trying to say.
I'm not a greedy person. I'm not difficult to please. I dont need a lot of hoopla or fabulosity around me to know Im loved, appreciated, or living life. I like hugs. I like cottage/traditional style decorations. I'd rather be in sweats than high heels and a designer suit. Im just very simple.
One downfall of being simple is that I dont ask for much. This morning the Lord reminded me that just because Im "Blessed" doesnt mean I cant and shouldnt ask for more. The blessing doesnt stop HERE. I am HIS child. I am DESTINED for greatness. I was called before the foundations of the world, and I am blessed to be a blessing. Because I have found a place of contentment that is all the more reason for God to bless me. For instance; my son sometimes gets irritated when he cant have what he wants when he wants it. Last night he showed that he had grown in this area when I asked him to wait and he didnt stomp away or fold his arms, but instead said, "Ok Momma". You know how I responded? I was so pleased that he had learned his lesson that I STOPPED doing what I was doing, and immediately turned on the show he wanted to watch.
This morning the Lord revealed to me that in the last 2 years I've learned some lessons, and now He CHOOSES to bless me. He knows Im content with most things in my life. He knows there have been some things I desire, but I only kept them in my heart as dreams, and "one days". But today....He took notice, and gently said to me...."Ask me. Ask me what you will."
I encourage those of you today who are comfortable and content with where you are to remember that although we often go through trials and storms; when we've come out and learned certain lessons; God wants to reward us. I challenge you today to believe God for that "dream" or "one day" you've kept locked up. "Ask Him.....ask Him what you will."
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