The last two weeks of my life have been wonderful.
* I started a new position on my job
* We moved to a bigger place on Christmas Eve
* I spent the holidays with my sisters, my husband and son, and good friends
* I went to a youth conference where my husband was the music coordinator and my sister led worship, and i sang here and there.
*I had the chance to see and minister at a mega church in Houston and realized that there are churches out there that still believe in taking care of God's people and servants.
* I have received some good news and I am hopeful about the future.
One thing that always happens to me as a result of a year or season ending, and a new one beginning; I become extremely reflective. As 2009 approached, I didn't sense the same jubilation and excitement I had last year. I felt very somber and challenged to do much more than I did in 2008.
2008 was a year of heartache for me. I lost a baby. I lost confidence in people. I lost time that I wasted. But in the midst of all that losing, I gained alot. EXPERIENCE.
I may not have a degree in psychology, but I could easily counsel a woman who has lost a child.
I may not be a womans ministry director, but I have seen enough in my own life and others lives, that I could teach a group of women effectively about healing, recovery, and forgiveness.
I may not have a platinum selling album, but I could write and sing songs about the pains of life and the restorative live of Christ.
I may only be a member of a worship team, but years of experience, and the way I've come to know God through my struggles has changed and deepened my worship until I could lead a crowd of thousands without the fear and desire for approval I used to carry on my back.
I may not be the easiest person to understand or even get along with. But I'm worth the time, energy, and understanding that true friendship and love takes.
The roster has changed. I dont have all the same friends; I've let some go, and added some new ones. I dont look up to all the people I used to. I don't feel obligated to have certain people in my life. And its OKAY.
I feel so confident in God, in his inability to fail, that I am able to take responsibility for my choices and actions today.
2009 is about me taking action, refusing to apologize for who God called me to be, and accepting the call of God on my life with no fear, no hesitation, and no excuses. I am charged, challenged, and focused.
Tell me, what will you take responsibility for this year?