My Ben

THIS is my handsome husband.
Lately, I've fallen deeper in love with him, more than ever before.
He hasn't changed his hairstyle.
He still tells corny jokes.
And although he's been pumpin' alot of iron at the gym, it has nothing to do with his muscles either.

Okay...it doesn't have EVERYTHING to do with his muscles. : )

It's the way I've had the chance to see him...like God sees him.

I'm a worrier by nature.
When unexpected things happen, I tend to tense up.
When money is short, so is my fuse.
When problems arise, I like to find solutions...IMMEDIATELY.

My husband is laid back.
He's a peaceful man who dislikes conflict.
He's not easily moved by changes and unforeseen happenings.
He's a pretty happy guy.

In recent months there have been changes that have effected us drastically.
After losing the baby, I've carried my emotions on my shoulder, even more so than before.
In all honesty, I haven't been the easiest person to live with.

In the last few weeks I've been spending a lot of time in prayer and devotions. I assumed that by dedicating more time to God, he would quickly change our circumstances, and all would be well. Instead, I find things are still the same, but my perspective has changed.

As a result, I've been remembering the reasons I fell in love with Ben in the beginning.
He was authentic. pure-hearted. gentle. creative. faith-filled. loving. generous. romantic.
And to be quite honest, he's still all those things.
I've just allowed the circumstances in our life to be bigger than our union...our love...our life together.

Yesterday I prayed fervently for Ben.
I prayed that God would bless him with the desires of his heart.
I prayed that God would give him a job in a ministry that is cutting edge and spirit filled.
I prayed that Ben would work in an atmosphere where he can be restored creatively. musically. spiritually. financially. emotionally.
I prayed that God would give him friendship and mentors that can see the LIFE God has put inside him, and provide encouragement and accountability to help him reach the next level.
I prayed that God would teach me daily how to be the wife Ben needs me to be.
I prayed that Ben would prosper.
I prayed that the dreams he has for our family would come to pass.
I prayed that Ben would no longer be Abram, but Abraham.

Its amazing that in praying for him so fervently, in spite of myself, and the wounds I have left to be healed...I am feeling stronger than I have in months.

The girl in this picture is smiling because she knew in her very spirit that the man she had just married was not the man of her dreams...he was real. He IS real. And He's mine.

And Im thankful .

Comments

[whittakerwoman]

Oh I am totally gonna pray these prayers (altered a little) but pray them for Carlos. Great post. H